Saturday, December 24, 2011

Grace and a Discussion


If I ever keep a list of bestest pastors I’ve heard; Judah Smith would be tops, hands down. Only for one particular reason: he mixes attitude with humility (now there’s an oxymorn!), in all he keeps his focus on Jesus. He’s got this molecular thinking which at the same time is contemporary, yet bible adhering AND uncannily funny! With his knack of keeping his listeners captivated as they listen to stories they’ve heard a million times over… Totally inebriating! And all he preaches is Jesus, nothing more nothing less! Though I’m a critic of many things, I’ll be honest here; almost every one of Judah’s messages have moved me, made me pay more attention to things in the bible, and have influenced my prayers.

His talks on God’s Grace are only outdone by Max Lucado’s books. By the way, Grace can be a weird (read 'illogical') little (read 'unmerited') concept (read 'personality') that’s sorta hard to grasp, especially for the noobs (no offense! :D ), but it’s by far *the* most outtathisworld, free (read the letters, “FREE”) gift given to anyone who believes that such a thing exists (it’s that simple, just believe!). I’ll get into the topic of Grace in another post, soon. Though the reason I brought up Grace was because I stumbled upon this goldmine of a pastor a couple of months back while watching the 2008 series of Hillsong Conference where he did a message on the topic of ‘Embrace Grace’. I became a hardcore fan right after... (of Jesus, of course! :P )

I’m not going into much with this post, cos it’s got two forty minute videos embedded right underneath, both of Judah’s. The first being the talk on ‘Embrace Grace’ (which he gave at Foreward 2009, couldn’t find the same he gave at Hillsong Conference 2008) and the second (aired very recently) where he and his wife answers some really funky questions that’s relevant to our society today. The answers they give are as humbly attitudinal as they come and by far the best I’ve heard... (Especially his reply to “Is dancing in clubs or schools bad? What about grinding, cat daddy and dougie?”)

Embrace Grace [Live @ Foreward 2009]




The Discussion Q&A [Live @ The City Church, Seattle]



You can watch most of Judah’s messages over the past year from http://www.thecity.org

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Jonah: The Square Peg in a Round Hole


The book of Jonah was written anonymously, though most believe that Jonah himself was the writer. It is one book of the bible where people would easily go, "Been there, done that". We all know the story; he was a ‘chicken’ prophet who was too scared to do the will of God. God punished him by getting a fish to macerate him. He realized his mistake, repented and went back to doing what God called him to do. And we all know he was just, as most theologians would put it, a ‘minor’ prophet. But in all this, there is more to him than what meets the eye. As anyone from RZIM would say, "Let’s put this stuff into context..!", and it’s to the context where I’m going.

Thursday, May 12, 2011

Sigh


Goodbye, something so hard to fathom
So bitter, yet always, dissolves in sweetness
Sweetness in blissful memories, simple lovable euphoria
One that kindles your heart, elation that makes it beat faster
Faster with love, love with tears, tears of joy
Joy of saying a Goodbye...

It's hard saying goodbye
Excruciating it becomes, you realize
You'll never spend those moments again
Never to see them. Ever.
Ever is a strong word, even for me
But deep down you know it’s true...

You wish you could rewind...
You imagine you could go back, do it all again...
Lost in fantasy, this time better,
Spending more with them
But it melts, as reality grasps
You can’t. You just can’t...

What were you doing? All those times? When they were still there?
When time was in its abundance?
A thought struck your mind, Once.
The day was Inescapable. Inevitable. Irrevocable.
Fateful. Destined.
The time to say goodbye would eventually come...

Yet you shunned that thought
Contended yourself; they are always there
Lot more to go through, lot more to do,
A lot of time before that fatal day arrives.
And before you know it;
It’s all gone!

You give a hug. You so badly don’t want to let go
You want to hold them closer
Yet you say that dreadful word;
Goodbye...
Terribly, trying to control those tears,
holding them back…

You watch them fade into the distance
Slowly, their eyes to the ground.
Too heavy to look up, too anguished to turn back.
Waning. Disappearing. Fading. Melancholy.
The ground chills. Shivers creep you, the realization crushes you...
You’re never going to see them again…

All your noesis screaming at you, Run!
Run behind them! Catch them! Hold Them!
And do everything once more…
Just one more time… But you can’t…
Your heart tells you its goodbye. For good.
Nothing can be done; yet a lot more that could’ve been done...

And they turn into that despicable corner; you no longer see them
You want to burst, you want to scream.
The instant they disappear from your sight; You pray.
That it was all a dream, you'll be awake soon,
You'll get to do it all again. All happy! All blissful!
But that thought pops with your heart throbbing...

You pray they’ll turn around
They’ll come back.
You stare at that empty street. Your eyes hurt.
Please, turn back.
But they don’t. They’re gone.
Never to look back again...

You pray your paths will cross again.
You will meet again. Somewhere, someplace...
You grab this possibility and gouge it.
You wish it would be true...
You would have more moments again, more laughs, more fun,
more tears, more fights, more freakouts…

You run into your empty room
You scream ‘WHY?!’,
You cry
It’s okay to cry.
Scream.
Let it all out. And pray...

You pray, you pray...
But all you have are those indelible memories
Adore them
Love them
Cherish them
Never let them go, for that might be all you get in this lifetime...

One more time
To do things differently
To love more
To crack those jokes you’ve held back
To talk more
To open up to them. To let them open up
To treasure more
To hold their hearts. Just one more time…
Please...

This time, with love than with anger
This time, without a gloomy face.
This time, to make them happy.
This time, to make them laugh.
This time, to smile at them.
Oh I wish… I wish…. I wish….

My heart aches.
So bad.
So heavy. Its bursts.
A gaping hole is all that remains.
I lie on my bed.
I let those held back tears flow.

Never again. I promise.
We’ll keep our remaining days with such fervor
That saying goodbye would be just senseless.
We’ll do everything
That we can hope to do and more.
Oh, we would achieve it.

A day won’t go by
That I won’t be reminded of you.
I’ll forever shout it from the rooftops.
Those days we set on fire.
My memories forever mine.
My memories forever yours...

I look for the day they'll return...
I bane, for a final Kiss.
And they throw it to me.
One last touch…
A Goodbye…
....

“The worst stab wound is the one to the heart. Sure, most people survive it, but the heart is never quite the same. There’s always a scar, which is meant, I guess, to remind you that even for a little while, someone made your heart beat faster. And that’s a scar you can live with, proudly, all the days of your life.”
~ Augustus Hill

God bless you guys...!

Friday, February 18, 2011

The Bloody River

 
Before anything; know that you do not need the story of how a person was saved to realize that something has changed in his life. You absolutely do NOT need a testimony; ‘cause all you have to do is to open your eyes, and take a good look at him. The Bible says you will know a person by his fruits. A good tree cannot bear bad fruits and vice versa. And it won’t take anything to realize if a tree is good or bad  (if you believe the Bible that is…). That is the only way you’ll know if anything at all is really true.

This entry is long, grueling, beyond uncanny and painstakingly boring. You need not read all of this at all. But it’s there for my happiness and my closure on certain matters. It’s the very reason why this blog was created, the essence of it all; that someday I might go about and write what goes through my head. And it did take some time to get over it, but I did, and here it is: My thoughts in a thought...

In my most demented times, I wonder at the marvel; of how I was introduced to Christ. Not as just a goody do good person, but as a God; my God, as my savior, as my father, brother and friend… Though, the only thing that stood in my way was my foolhardy intellect. I faintly remember the first few stories I’ve heard about Him ‘back in the days’, those stories about a cool Dude walking on water, about those ‘Be still’ stories, and my! Water into wine! About Jonah and the fish, about David, Noah and the Ark. Stories that was fascinating to me as a child. I guess we all begin the same way; hear these as just ‘stories’ and around 20 years later (or way less), if you allow it, these stories will become a cherished history… Your history. Then it becomes all about the Kingdom you’ve just entered, all of its hosts applauding your entry; a Kingdom with a King who came to you disguised, who so dolefully gave away His precious life for your idiocy and paid the full price for your ingress; such and such in a huge calamitous divine collision. Know that He wants to incur an endearing beautiful exchange with you. All you’ve got to do is, for once; put away that intellect of yours, and open your hearts to believe. The rest is sure to follow.